Pianos, acoustics, melodious, melting in.....
And Adele said, time flies by like yesterday was the time of our lives when we were born!
It's been a three months journey of 2022 and after 1 hour there will only be 11 days left for my birthday, which I will not be celebrating ever, counting from this one!
And Adele is whispering..... sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead!
Why the hell things are so complicated with me!
I wanted to make a call today at exactly 12 AM in the morning of 28th, to try and be the first one to wish, but then I thought, leave it, just don't push it further. After all this is all your doing! Even if you cant bear the pain of it, be ready to live with it, no matter what happens!
Had a word in the afternoon, a friend was already there with her, so I did not want her to hold back longer, wished her and wished her again and not knowing what to say any further just wished her again and hung up. That was it! That was it! Really? Was it?
Why did that linking park guy said, in the end it does not even matter! It does! The hell it does!
But I trust in, I worked so hard and got so far.....
Anyways the coding part is going slow too, slower than I anticipated and I have not even done enough practice of recursive problems.
I am facing a problem with something fundamental, I come up with solutions really quick but given that I have understood the problem. Anyways, I will still keep going, I need to improve, I know that very well, things have never been the same and they will never be the same.
So no matter what happens, I'll keep going. Not because I have hope, but because it is a promise to myself. A commitment to myself. For one long year, long enough to make or break you!
At this point in my life, I can see things stagnating, I can see where the branches lead you, where the roads are taking me, I see the puzzle is not really a puzzle, I see the patterns, the only thing that is hard to resolve is, the emotional outburst, it is almost like a baby!
And I've got a long way to go, sirens repeat, searching for the answer, I hear my battle symphony! No surrender....No illusions!
Songs, just charge you double, or even triple sometimes! They are more powerful than we think!
It is hard, but I also know that it will always be like this if I do not work now, if I do not suffer now, the hard will never become something that is easy for me, or normal. So giving up makes no sense, yet my stupid brain has already thought about it a couple of times!
So, in the end I want to say I tried my best and I have reached here finally, but now that I have achieved it, I leave it all with respect and with proud!
When Life leaves us blind, love keeps us kind!
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